(This is me painting...)
I have been working through quite an artist block. I've had one painting on my easel for over a month now. I like it, but I think I'm scared to ruin it, so I procrastinate. But... I'm not really sure if I'm procrastinating or it's something else. My dyslexia/ADD is working overtime lately. I really am having some trouble doing stupid things. The other day I was trying to buy a bottle of wine in a store that I hadn't been in before and I couldn't find anything, like literally couldn't find anything. all I could see were thousands of bottles of wine, but I couldn't see any single one of them. I couldn't pick out which were Cab or Merlot or Zin, and I couldn't even find a label I'd recognize. (That's how I buy wine sometimes: "Not Sure how it's gonna Taste, But it sure has a pretty label!") It's not that I can't see the forest through the trees, It's finding one God damn tree in the forest. I had the same trouble last week trying to pick out a birthday card for my sister. Again, could see thousands of cards but couldn't focus on any single one long enough to see what it said. So I ended up with a nice Bat Mitzvah card and that was that. So is this related to my painter's block? Who knows? But it's given me something to write about again.
Friends have heard about my dilemma and stop to check in, motivate, encourage. They've brought dinner and wine.(100 Grove St. BTWs.. don't forget to lock your car.) They've pushed without pushing too far. The help is appreciated as is the company. Some days it's tough just sitting and staring at this painting. I can see in my mind what it will look like. I can see on the easel how it looks now. I don't know why I have trouble bridging that gap. So, I've been trudging forward slowly and surely. A little progress made here and there... But I need a motivator... So I'm donating it to a good cause! There is a nursery school on cape that needs some playground equipment that just isn't in the budget. They are going to have an auction to raise the money and I'm putting my painting in their auction!!! I'll fill you in with all the details as I get them. The auction is on March 11th.(I think!) I now need to finish the painting. The imaginations of lots of tiny tots are riding on it. HAH! Instant motivation! I'm also thinking of making it into prints and offering half the proceeds to schools playground program,but don't have the money to get the prints made. First things first, though. Lets finish the painting.
On that note. When you make your living by being a painter and you have painters block, you really don't have much of an income. The Christmas season was pretty good to me and I made money in line with what I was making actually "working" for a living. But, it really drained my inventory. I haven't replaced what I've sold ... I may have to get a job... Or sell some paintings.
Until next time... I've got to walk the dog... In the rain :(
You can buy a painting here:
(that a link...click it!)
This is what that painting ended up looking like:
Thanks for reading!